since you have been gone I have done so much to make you proud i have left my old job at flawless and have decided to try opening my own shop now nan and my god it' scary but at the same time it' nice I'm my own boss the strangest thing always happens when I'm in the shop I play the radio alot and supermarket flower comes one I stop what I'm doing and I'm like don't cry , don't cry then smile and think of all the happy memories I have of you and their is loads of them and it makes me feel better I have also started to pray alot more I tent to go to the chapel in loros just to be at peace but also feel a ittle closer to you silly I know as your everywhere and I have u in my locket that never leaves my neck my girls miss you too every ime we go mum' perri lea shouts up to you but he just gets the sound of the birds we all have a little piece of you I have your front room pretty much aha but it' nice to come home and see I still don' feel like I have lost enough tears because I still can' accept the fact your no longer on this earth I feel like your around sometimes I get a cold feeling or a soft smell of your perfume but that cold feeling could be me I am your daughters son and she' never warm but I see you all the time as your never farm from anything I do love you always nan xxxx